I was sitting with hanane. we had talked earlier about energy theft. suddenly a realization starts to form.
ego? what is it really? I’ve taken many courses in meditation, and they define ego. I talked to people who use the word frequently. it seems everyone assumes they know what it is. and no one I’ve talked to knows how it works. or why it works that way. for what purpose? what is it?
when you hear someone mention ego, you get the impression that it’s some kind of entity inside you. you also get the impression that it’s trying to control you, and you should ignore it. you should kill it. get rid of it. be egoless. how are we supposed to do that and we still don’t know what it is, how it works, and why it does what it does.
we also know that it’s cunning. that it plays mind games. it tricks us into believing that the idea it’s suggesting doesn’t come from ego. it creates ways for us to justify that our own actions are ego-free. while the harsh reality is the complete opposite. this realization that started to form earlier is now complete. I can say that for myself, I have understood and answered the questions above (for the time being at least). and most importantly I’ve understood why the ego does what it does. and for me, getting rid of the ego is now easier.
I’ll share this realization with you in part 2 (continue to part 2.)